I was doing just fine without sugar until I had some on Sunday. It started with a chocolate covered strawberry at the bridal shower, and just that little bit of chocolate set me off. Then a couple days later, I decided that it was okay to dive into the goodie bag from the shower.
You can see where this is going.
Yesterday night, after eating three healthy meals, I decided it was okay to finish the Jolly Rancher Jelly Beans I had stashed away. Then today at work, I felt sick. I felt nauseous. I have felt nauseous even to the point of throwing up at work dozens of times this year. For a hot second I thought I was pregnant, but I'm not nor have I ever been. Something that I do to my body causes me to throw up. It makes me sad to think that I am the sole cause of my pain. It's pathetic really.
Even though I am still eating very healthy meals, it's sugary snacks that I crave. I have been able to abstain from sugar completely for months at a time before, and it is only after a lot of time after not eating sugar that I can eat it normally. Once I cross the line of eating more than I should though, there's no turning back.
I can't keep doing this to myself, no matter how good sugar tastes.
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